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    Tackling alcoholism and bulimia with Faith
    Anna Jolliff
    • May 23, 2021
    • 8 min

    Tackling alcoholism and bulimia with Faith

    "I spent a year or two in a constant state of inebriation, besides those moments when I was sober enough to find some food and throw it up.”
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    Thirty days sober with Harper
    Anna Jolliff
    • Jan 9, 2021
    • 7 min

    Thirty days sober with Harper

    "I felt like I was just existing. Even if I was just smoking weed, I was not feeling things."
    4 comments
    Ten things I loved in 2020
    Anna Jolliff
    • Dec 31, 2020
    • 2 min

    Ten things I loved in 2020

    I laid aside my fears for just long enough to sign my first lease with a partner, in my first relationship with a woman.
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    A little bit addicted to everything
    Anna Jolliff
    • Dec 19, 2020
    • 10 min

    A little bit addicted to everything

    “My ‘ism started well before the use of alcohol,” says Kristen. “Well before the first time I used.”
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    An alcoholic researcher's perspective on alcohol research
    Anna Jolliff
    • Oct 24, 2020
    • 4 min

    An alcoholic researcher's perspective on alcohol research

    Most researchers have a habit of putting themselves under the microscope. “Mesearch,” it’s called. It’s when the person with an eating...
    5 comments
    I tried AA on Zoom
    Anna Jolliff
    • May 15, 2020
    • 4 min

    I tried AA on Zoom

    On March 16th, I attended my last in-person AA meeting. In the month leading up to that, meetings had grown progressively empty. We sat...
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    On the urge to "get productive" in quarantine
    Anna Jolliff
    • Apr 17, 2020
    • 3 min

    On the urge to "get productive" in quarantine

    Lately I've been posting here a little less. The reason is not that I haven't been writing. Rather, I simply haven't been writing the...
    1 comment
    On belonging and the miracle of choice with Chris
    Anna Jolliff
    • Mar 20, 2020
    • 6 min

    On belonging and the miracle of choice with Chris

    Look for the similarities, not the differences. From an outsider’s perspective, Chris and I don't appear to have much in common. He’s a...
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    What does COVID-19 mean for alcoholics?
    Anna Jolliff
    • Mar 13, 2020
    • 4 min

    What does COVID-19 mean for alcoholics?

    To be clear, I’m not asking what COVID-19 means for practicing alcoholics. I’m assuming that, for people who still drink, the virus won’t...
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    Sober on Valentine's Day
    Anna Jolliff
    • Feb 14, 2020
    • 2 min

    Sober on Valentine's Day

    Maybe Valentine's Day stress you out. Maybe you can’t imagine a sober one. Or maybe it's no big deal for you; maybe you'd even forgotten...
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    How to quit drinking in 10 steps
    Anna Jolliff
    • Feb 7, 2020
    • 4 min

    How to quit drinking in 10 steps

    The other day, my girlfriend asked if I ever thought I would make it to four years sober. That’s a harder question than you might think....
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    I'm four years sober today
    Anna Jolliff
    • Jan 24, 2020
    • 3 min

    I'm four years sober today

    This morning I woke early to stomach pains. These are the natural result of a body in transition. About four months ago, I began to...
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    How I know I'm alcoholic
    Anna Jolliff
    • Jan 17, 2020
    • 3 min

    How I know I'm alcoholic

    Some days, my alcoholic mind plays tricks on me. “You never drank every day," my mind says. “You never had withdrawals.” “You haven’t...
    2 comments
    Responsibility after relapse
    Anna Jolliff
    • Jan 10, 2020
    • 3 min

    Responsibility after relapse

    These days, my home group is a women's newcomer meeting. I suppose it’s meant for those early in sobriety. With four years, I attend...
    2 comments
    I went to 90 meetings in 90 days
    Anna Jolliff
    • Dec 27, 2019
    • 4 min

    I went to 90 meetings in 90 days

    A little over three months ago I moved home to Oregon. My Wisconsin sponsor suggested that, upon arrival, I attend 90 twelve step...
    2 comments
    More boring drunkalogues
    Anna Jolliff
    • Oct 30, 2019
    • 3 min

    More boring drunkalogues

    You’ve probably heard of imposter syndrome. That’s when you don’t feel like you deserve your seat at the table. You glance nervously...
    2 comments
    The newcomer
    Anna Jolliff
    • Oct 16, 2019
    • 3 min

    The newcomer

    Yesterday in a twelve step meeting, I sat across from a girl who felt like home. When she introduced herself to the group, I saw that she...
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    I'm an alcoholic and I moved states. Now what?
    Anna Jolliff
    • Oct 4, 2019
    • 3 min

    I'm an alcoholic and I moved states. Now what?

    On September 16th, I began the drive from Madison to Newberg, Oregon. Minnesota, North Dakota, Montana, Washington, Home. I was moving...
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    6 things it's hard to say aloud 
(part 1)
    Anna Jolliff
    • Sep 17, 2019
    • 3 min

    6 things it's hard to say aloud (part 1)

    On Sunday, I had the opportunity to share my story in a women’s recovery meeting. These days I rarely get nervous, largely because of...
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    Getting selfish to get sober?
    Anna Jolliff
    • Sep 6, 2019
    • 3 min

    Getting selfish to get sober?

    In recovery, we’re always flirting with the idea of selfishness. There are the worried mothers wondering if it’s “selfish” to leave their...
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